It’s been a super long time since I’ve sat down and blogged. That’s a good sign. It means my mental health is….healthy and my fear/anxiety levels are manageable. I mean, by today’s standards. A little anxiety and fear can take you places, right?
A few things have happened since I last wrote in July. We had an amazing family vacation in Rehoboth Beach. We were in a 5-car pile up on the way home from said vacation. We made the decision to move my mom from VT to Rochester. We broke ground and closed on a brand new home (cancer and all, why the f not?!). We said happy birthday to our now 14 and 16 year old kiddos. Jeff has taken on a new role at work and it couldn’t be any better fit for my social butterfly. I have settled into my role as an IT manager (only took 2 years) and feel more at home in my own skin than ever. I’ve had my first root canal and mammogram too. TMI? Sorry, man. It’s all or nothin’ here.
It’s been kind of a weird few months, but also totally awesome. I love this life. And as you know ‘this life’ includes lung cancer. We’ve made so many memories with friends, families and co-workers…aka some of our best friends in the world.
So often though we are reminded of our fragile reality.
Over the summer we said good-bye to Kelly. She was really special. A beautiful human inside and out. And she lived here in Rochester. There aren’t many people locally that are running around with a young family and stage IV lung cancer (if you are, we want your celly). Kelly struggled in many ways, but her light shined regardless of the adversity of the disease, of being a single mom. Her apartment was across the street from Finley’s daycare. Even when I didn’t see her, I thought of her every weekday morning when I dropped off. And I continue to think of her.
Kelly and Jeff shared a special bond and they always will.
You see, even when scans are clean and there’s no shit hitting the fan and when the skies aren’t gray, we still live with a dash of holy shit, when will it be us? We know that someday it could very well be. Just a couple of weeks ago our lung cancer community took a significant hit with the passing of Matt Ellefson, founder of SurviveIt. If you have a moment, Google this guy, he’s amazing and so is his wife Melissa. They kept it real throughout the 9+ years Matt lived with ALK+ Lung Cancer.
The moral of this rambling blog is that life happens. And whether you’re living with an illness or not, make sure to take a moment and dream. Believe. Anything awesome or shitty can happen. And it’s up to each of us to learn from it and find the joy in it. Be the good, friends.
Much love, much hope, and much believin’. xo!